Clothes.

So lets just talk about clothes, shall we? I am in no way a fashionista... my wardrobe is plain and my closet is color coordinated  I have 5 million gray, pink, white, and blue shirts. All of those are pretty plain at that. Sometimes the occasional stripes and I have I think 2 shimmery tank tops, and a black sequence tank. That sums me up. Jeans, shirts, and flip flops is my summer apparel, and the fall and winter is my handy white north face jacket that I've wore completely out, some jeans, a 3/4 length sleeve shirt and Sperry shoes, that sums me up! I don't necessarily want to ALWAYS dress that way its just whats the most accessible. You see... Clothes aren't that simple if your on the bigger side. Of course its easy to put a big t-shirt on and jeans and go but I don't want to always dress that way! Sometimes though there isn't much of a choice. Now I'm well aware that many stores have plus size clothes that are VERY cute but even with that option sometimes picking out clothes still isn't that simple. If you are a skinny minny then God Bless you. Don't take that for granted as far as clothing goes. 

Every summer I get so frustrated getting ready. I have friends that are small and I just love the "ease" they have with their clothes. Every summer I think to myself, "WHY didn't I stick to my dumb New Years Resolution, I could be so far along by now and I wouldn't have to deal with this clothes dilemma!" Every year ya'll, every year I have that argument with myself. EXCEPT this year! yeah! So with that i'm excited for clothes! I'm still not no where near what I need to be or want to be but i'm so much closer then I was in January! I'm rambling! What i'm trying to get to is clothes is not easy when your bigger!

On a summer day if I want to go to some gathering for example a cook out and I know its going to be hot... I can't just run in the house and put on a lil maxi dress or throw on some jeans and a tank top. Nope. Not that simple. You see i'm short so maxi dresses are a NO even though i'm still looking for one lol but if your short and big like me then um... they're not flattering or I've not found one yet. Can't just put on a tank and shorts, nope coz thats just to simple. My legs are (but getting smaller) biiiiig so shorts never ever looked ok and they rode up when I walked and that was just annoying cant just put a tank top on I have to layer my clothes with a tank top under the original planned tank because with all my rolls lol the extra tank sorta helped smooth them out just a liiiiiitle bit. Anyone else know what i'm talking about??? Oh and let's not forget about the strapless bra! If you have big boobs then strapless bras are a joke... see nothing simple. Clothes just aren't that simple when your bigger!

And trip to say Kings Island. HAHAHA geeezzz..... its always blistering hot and I have been known to spend a great deal of time trying to figure out what to do about clothes. I of course had to go with capris. With that always came with what type of material.... jeans would be to heavy and if I was to ride anything that involved water then that of course would rub my legs raw before it got dry but then cotton would burn me up as well... and something tight like yoga pants. psht... there is a comedian in us all. And then of course with the tank top issue.... super bulky strapless bra with the 2 tank tops or t-shirt with a tank top underneath because thats what we all want right?? 90+ degrees with humidity of 6700 and wear 34 layers with jean capris. give me a break. aggravation.

Swimming. Wow. Ryan and I had plans to spend the weekend on the lake and I spent a fortune before getting there. For a weekend on the lake I spent a fortune on apparel. That is a sentence that should never been said. I had to buy a swim suit top in which I wore a strapless bra underneath, swim suit bottoms with shorts that I had to search to match my top over that. Oh oh oh and then! One of those lil dress things to put over all that. Really???? Who wears that much on a boat in the middle of the lake?!?!? I spent the day tugging and pulling at all of my many layers. The rest of the summer played out that way as well. Ryan would say lets go swimming! He would go put on flip flops and swimming trunks.I went to layer up. 

Oh and Jeans! gaaaah.... when I could find them to fit well they didn't look very good. Boot cut wasn't flattering but flare was to much.. skinny jeans were an arch enemy. I just looked like a huge ball with feet sticking out.... 

And in the fall/winter.... always jealous of the chicks who just so effortlessly just put on some cute skinny jeans, throw on some cute TALL boots and a comfy sweater. Not for me though! My calf muscles are HUGE although they've been shrinking and i'm so excited about that I can't even express. But with my massive calf muscles tall boots were a no go. The boots I do have are only mid calf and they were originally to fit really loose ya know kinda baggy? not on me though it was a process to get them on and they were skin tight. So once they were on they were on ALL day. 

Lazy pants like boyfriend fit? yeah... those fit really tight like fitted lazy pants.. no cute boyfriend fit for me! 

So with this rant you see where i'm going? And if your big too i'm sure you've had some of these problems. I can/could find plenty of cute clothes but there was always the tank tops and layering and vests, and camis and sweaters and whatever else to hide or smooth or cover. SHHEEESH! It's aggravating. 

BUT Praise The LORD things are getting so much better for me with clothes! I'm going to continue working so that this fall I can buy the cute tall boots! I've noticed that when I wear my wedges and I can stand and walk so much longer then once before. Before walking from the parking lot into a store and I was ready to croak. I now have saggy butt syndrome lol in all my pants and capris! Thats sort of aggravating because i'm having to tug and pull up my pants/capris all the time but with every tug I smile. Because for ONCE I started and have continued to finish out a weightloss goal. 

I know this post probably seems really vain and in some ways I guess it is. Thank God I had all these clothes to complain about and Thank God I had all the tank tops and everything else to go along. But if your big, have been big, then you know what i'm talking about with some of this! It can be so disheartening and frustrating when your getting ready. So now that I watch my clothes start getting baggy or clothes that I had that were so tight fit just right I see all sorts of hope! I didn't start this weight loss journey for the sole purpose of looking good in clothes. I had much much much more important reasons as to why but lets face it... us girls still wanna look good in clothes! And not really to impress no one either. When I put something on and I feel like it looks good I truly don't think to myself or wonder who it will impress. If no one notices i'll be fine but I noticed and that's what I was looking for! Moments when I like what i'm wearing! So here is to clothes fitting better and shedding layers!! Oh and the hunt for the perfect short girl maxi dress!